Ha Zaa

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Sunday, December 13, 2009

what do you do when you feel sad for someone else, for someone else close to someone else, and sad, so selfishly, for yourself . . .

the older i get, the more jaded i become, but also the more emotion i can express. i think i feel less emotion than as a child or a teenager or even in college, i couldn't tell you why . . maybe because i internalize things less, i'm more secure so less things affect me, etc etc etc . . . but i express more today than i ever did . . and right now when i feel sad and helpless, it's sometimes from a jaded place, and sometimes from a tragic and tearful place . . .

many times we must let go and cope, dying is inevitable, certain and tragic. death is too. but what i'm talking about is dying. when it's coming, when it's there in the air, when it's nearing, but not quite graspable, when you have to cope with the grief before it has occurred in a prophetic facade . . . that is how dying is different from death for me.